Let me step back a bit... Poor Tenz has caught a stomach bug. He has disgusting, mucasy diarrhea and needs to be changed every few minutes and his bum is so rashed and red and he screams bloody murder for each changing and he has cried more in these two days than his whole life added up!! I doesn't want to be held, he doesn't want to be set down, he only wants to hit and make me hurt like he hurts (he clearly gets that from me) and I couldn't even eat he was so needy. So, I decided he needed a warm salt bath to help his sore bum and to clean him up (obviously). I get the bath going and we get in and he is crying and I feel helpless and Pete has school tonight and I don't know when he will be home and I feel on the verge of crying myself and suddenly, he puts his head on my knee and lightly stirs the water. He is so sad and in pain that he just gave up and it hit me, however awful this is on me, it is worse on him. He doesnt' know what this pain is, why everything hurts, why mom can't fix it, why dad isn't here. I love that little boy so much that my heart nearly broke!!
I am exhausted...and just as my stress was hitting an all time high and I was thinking about who I could call to come and help me for just a little while, my eyes were opened! Let me step back a bit... Poor Tenz has caught a stomach bug. He has disgusting, mucasy diarrhea and needs to be changed every few minutes and his bum is so rashed and red and he screams bloody murder for each changing and he has cried more in these two days than his whole life added up!! I doesn't want to be held, he doesn't want to be set down, he only wants to hit and make me hurt like he hurts (he clearly gets that from me) and I couldn't even eat he was so needy. So, I decided he needed a warm salt bath to help his sore bum and to clean him up (obviously). I get the bath going and we get in and he is crying and I feel helpless and Pete has school tonight and I don't know when he will be home and I feel on the verge of crying myself and suddenly, he puts his head on my knee and lightly stirs the water. He is so sad and in pain that he just gave up and it hit me, however awful this is on me, it is worse on him. He doesnt' know what this pain is, why everything hurts, why mom can't fix it, why dad isn't here. I love that little boy so much that my heart nearly broke!!
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